the million you never made

in my most lonely of days, when my soul is hungry, and i am starving to be fulfilled, my relationship with God endures, and actually grows stronger by the minute.

i am in need of transformation, of being more true to my faith. i struggle to combine my faith with my work, to push them together where they do not necessarily belong, so that i can be more true. in the end i might cheat myself doubly.

also, i left singing to the car radio once i could pick up good signal again. full hearted, feeling so good singing. it's been so long since i've just sung like that. got home and was still singing, even doing my homework. it's like a curse that's been over my head for a year has been lifted. i need more of this.

ah-hahaha... definitely safe for work HI-larious!

well, i really want barack to win. it is so close still, it is CRAZY. also, this weather is crazy. i think the two are linked.


this is a video i found on one of my favorite blogs. it has lots of actors, and is definitely worksafe, unless you can't watch videos at work. but find a way to watch it at some point.



(and much better than the Barack Girl Video!)

my professor just said ooopsie-doodle.


more updates on my classes to come.

ahem:

http://www.cafepress.com/girlishthings/1463679

pretty much my favorite ever.

so i bought two items at FYE tonight, and when i got home one of them wasn't there.

when i called about it, they said the only thing i could do was to come in and buy it again. what the fuck? for allthey know, they were 50$ ones, not $10 ones. i'm going to go in tomorrow and talk to the manager. this is rediculous. even though it was only $10, that's a lot on my budget.


just so you know, you can't trust them with your stuff.

well, archival excitingness at least. kinda.

ok, so i decided that i want to archive my lj, just for shits sake, ya know? and because i've had the damn thing since 2001, and that's a long portion of my life. anyhow, i did it with ljbook, which turns it.. into a pdf! how cool is that? anyways, i realized that i have a lot of crapshit on it, like quizzes that don't function anymore and crap like that. so i'm editing all of those entries. and by editing i mean deleting, unless they have any more important information. because this pdf was 943 freakin' pages! i'm gonna try and wean that down a hell of a lot (also i think you can make it so that the entries flow instead of have one per page. alas.

something for people to think about, just in case lj goes wonky someday, or something like that.

ok, i'm gonna go continue to be a dork (instead of doing my homework!).


also: mac people, what lj client do you use, if any?

do you ever have to handwrite something before you type it because you get stuck otherwise?


that is the moral of the story with this project. it is frustrating! (though at least i can write and type fast, so it is productive...)

tonight i ate my turkey with cranberry sauce and sweet potato healthy choice frozen meal. it made me feel like i was eating cheap thanksgiving, and where was the pie and the so good salads? and i guess it was, since it was only a 5 point meal, including the crap-ass apple dessert...

my projects for one class are merging together, which i hate when that happens.

and my problem with them is that i will probably do too much work because high school and Earlham have taught me too well . it's true. even my crap work was getting me A's by the end of my senior year (except for my Mary Garman class, for which I love her!), so putting hard effort into this bad project feels horrible to my soul. can't it even REALLY matter? aside from the end of the semester?


the problem with me and grad school: my instinct is too good. everything is like "well, DUH" for me. and therefore i don't want to do these readings, or these projects. except my archiving class. well, it's not that that class isn't instinctual. but at least i'm way more interested in those topics (as opposed to information management and organization of information. gosh.).

but otherwise life is good. i love my job and practicum, my housemates are good, i'm seeing random people who are now living in DC/ outside of DC every so often, and i found a Meeting i enjoy.

word.

i am graduated and home!

anybody else in philly? i am gone sat - sun but would love to get together before/ after!

1. this NOISE... it's loud, and sounds like something trying to die. and it's been going on for a while, long enough to wake me up several times.... *le sigh*

2. the fact that i haven't been able to sleep through an entire night in.... probably over a month. something is definitely wrong with me, i think.

3. my lack of motivation. it makes my one sucky class seem even worse, every time.

1. the person who is chunking away snow from around EH right now. right now. at 8 fucking 30 in the morning.

2. my sheet that keeps popping of not just one, but *two* corners of my bed now.

3. how even with the window open, and a fan going, it is still boiling in my room

4. my lack of motivation, and also presence of being stupid and not getting some queer as folk last night.

5. dress rehearsal from 4-7:30pm for genesis today. and finding out tuesday that it's gonna last a whole 2 hours....



some things i am not annoyed at:
1. at least i went to bed early, but really? stupidstupid people! gosh, it's so loud!

2. having a good draft of my romeo + juliet film review done, and a draft of my psalm paper and analysis almost done (but out of my hands).

3. being in some grad schools

4. having 49 podcasts to listen to while i work out and then work in the archives today.

5. the fact that i can go back to sleep if i want to. (and if i ignore the hacker-away-at-snow)

Richmond, IN* -1...8 F
Wiscasset, ME -1...16 F


WTF? Indiana colder/the same as than MAINE?

wtf, mate, wtf.

just wanted to let everyone know that im stopping reading lj from now on.

how could anyone ever tell you, you were anything less than beautiful?
how could anyone ever tell you, you were less than whole?
how could anyone fail to notice that your loving is a miricle?
how deeply you're connected to my soul.

how could anyone ever tell you, you were anything less than beautiful?
how could anyone ever tell you, you were less than whole?
how could anyone fail to notice that your loving is a miricle?
how deeply you're connected to my soul.

how could anyone ever tell you, you were anything less than beautiful?
how could anyone ever tell you, you were less than whole?
how could anyone fail to notice that your loving is a miricle?
how deeply you're connected to my soul.

how could anyone ever tell you, you were anything less than beautiful?
how could anyone ever tell you, you were less than whole?
how could anyone fail to notice that your loving is a miricle?
how deeply you're connected to my soul.

i think im moving a direction where i wont be posting in lj a lot, if at all.

i don't really feel like explaining it all, you can email or IM me and ask if you are really that curious.

i'll try and keep up with friends pages, the thing is that i have 12 lives in my house that i need to keep up with as well!!





i may start up later in the summer or in the fall but for now, adieu.

how do i get the tension ball back into my earring?? i took them out for the first time to put some gold earrings in from my mom and i can't figure out how to put the tension ball back on while just holding it, which makes me scared i won't be able to do it when i want to put them back into my ears.

any suggestions?!?

whooo!
internship form is mostly done, except for a part that i need more info on.

woot.

it smells like popcorn around.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


*breathes* AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
*deep breath*

ok. i think that's better. or at least helps.